4th of July

It is 8 pm right now and it is quiet. I have the doors and windows open and am hearing sounds from the far distance; kids playing outside, an airplane that flies over our house, firecrackers, birds singing. I thought I would enjoy this silence. Instead I am feeling lonely. A mist of boredom is taking over. This house seems unreal without the screams, whines and laughter of an active toddler, the coos and cries of an infant and a husband that keeps asking me a hundred things to do.

It's not that I don't have anything to do, there's always something to do in this house. I should jump in gear and clean up and prepare for tomorrow while they are asleep and noone is needing me. But instead, I chose to be lazy, sip on an ice cream Push-Up and write some in my blog.

This week I hope to fill out our first rental application somewhere. We still have 2-3 months before our lease is up, but I am expecting a couple of rejections, before and IF we get approved somewhere, so it's safer to start early. I so hope we find a nice apartment or house this time around inshAllah.
I don't want to get my hopes up because last time I did we never ended moving and I was quite disappointed.

Yesterday was the Fourth of July. We had made some plans, but my husband got called into work the day before and so it was just me and the kids. In the morning, I was busy cleaning and cooking, because there was going to be another studygroup. One, by one I took Eshan's braids out, divided the part in 2 and made 2 new braids instead. So now his braids look alot thinner. It looks so much better, but it did take double the time as usual. And after a while, even candy gets old...
After the sisters came over for the studygroup, my SIL called and asked if we wanted to come over for a little BBQ and fireworks. So at around 5 pm we went to her father's house and chilled over there. But before we could actually enjoy the bbq or fireworks it was 7.30 pm and I had to go pick up the husband. On our way home we stopped by Blockbuster and got Gran Torino.
It was such a good movie. I never really looked into it, but I always thought it was about the war. But it's about a saddened veteran who had just lost his wife. His kids and grandkids are all spoiled brats who don't want to have anything to do with him, except for when it comes to money. Then he creates a friendship with his teenage Vietname neighbor and becomes enemies with a local Asian gang. I thought it was a very good movie, except for some amateur acting here and there.

Anyway, I fell asleep during the middle of the movie and watched the sequel this morning.
Since it was raining yesterday night, they postponed the fireworks to tonight. But, unfortunately my husband had to be at work at 8 and took the car, so I won't be able to see the fireworks. Which, is actually not too bad since we're all tired anyways.

The whole neighborhood is cracking fireworks right now. I look thru the window and it looks like there's a big fire outside. Now I wish my son was still up to witness the beautiful fireworks. As a matter of fact, I wouldn't be surprised if he would wake up pretty soon, because they are so loud!!!!